Releasing the Dream

We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us — Joseph Campbell

If you knew me four years ago, you might have heard me say, 'I never want to own my own clinic', yet over the course of 2020, that belief began to shift.

If you’ve ever been to my current place of practice you know that it was never purchased to work from home, but as my journey lead me down an interesting path, it is what made sense - and born was the home clinic. InitalIy it was only a temporary stop over between clinics, however I continue get lovely feedback of how cozy, safe and welcoming it is, which truly warms my heart.

Around this time, my personal healing journey was taking me down a rabbit hole of holistic and alternative healing practitioners as I was experiencing pain and health concerns that traditional modalities were not finding solutions to. It was really quite challenging to find healers who thought and aligned with what my body needed, but slowly, connections were made, names were dropped and doors to meeting incredible humans started to open. Interestingly enough, most of these healers were also working from home or rented spaces in uncommon places.

One day I started to feel this fire, and a vision of a space where like-minded practitioners could feel safe to practice in their unique styles and where they felt free to dance between the science and spiritual realms. It was going to be a sanctuary for healing, transformation, and growth with 4-6 private rooms, an integration space and a larger room to host group events. This was the Dream!

I threw myself into planning. I started saving, creating a detailed business plan, researching areas and facilities, and even enlisting a real estate lawyer. I chatted with friends and colleagues who had already opened their own clinics for mentorship and advice. I began to meet with investors and toured spaces that could potentially become the clinic of my dreams. On paper, everything seemed to align. But as the process unfolded, roadblocks and speed bumps kept appearing, and I was only getting frustrated. I was meeting resistance.

The vision I had been working toward suddenly felt incomplete. I knew what I desired; the vibe, the people, and the energy, but this wasn’t supposed to be this hard. Doubt crept in. Resistance to the feeling of being tied down and committed. What if something went wrong while I was out of town? Would the clinic be successful? How would I find contractors? Could I financially sustain it?

I tried to push these thoughts aside, convincing myself that all dreams come with challenges. Yet, the hesitation lingered. No matter how much I planned or prepared, my intuition kept telling me something wasn’t aligning. Being someone that thrives on and dives deep into challenges, I tried to push, but there was pushback.

Then one Tuesday evening in September 2024 during a Nidra meditation I heard very clearly “it is time to release the clinic”. I started crying, my chest felt heavy, my brain was confused; isn’t this what I was meant to do? Was this not my next step? If not this, then what?

I have learned that I must trust these nudges when they come, no matter how much or little they may make sense at the time. Letting go of this dream was not easy. It felt like I was walking away from years of effort and planning. Walking away from the dream. But as I sat with the idea of releasing it, I realized something profound: by letting go, I wasn’t giving up. I was creating space for something more aligned, something that truly resonated with who I am and where I’m meant to be.

Since releasing the dream of the clinic, I’ve found incredible opportunities to create the same impact in a different way. I’ve deepened my focus on working one-on-one with clients and building connections with other practitioners without the overhead and stress of managing a physical space. I have been able to dedicate my energy to what I’m passionate about without being weighed down by the logistics that come with starting and running a clinic.

One of the most synchronous things that has happened since I released the dream of opening my own clinic, is that I have met a beautiful woman who basically opened up the exact clinic I was dreaming up, in the exact area that I had envisioned. She has taken done all the hard, laborious work and now I have a incredible space to host events and rent rooms as needed. I am so incredibly thankful. The universe works in mysterious ways, and meeting her felt like a profound confirmation of my decision to let go.

Letting go isn’t giving up or failing, it’s trusting that there is a greater plan for us. It is a powerful act of trusting trusting the process and trusting ourselves that things are happening for us, sometimes in the most unexpected ways.

If you find yourself holding onto a dream that feels more like a burden than a calling, I encourage you to pause and reflect. What would it feel like to let go? What could you create if you released what no longer aligns with your heart?

2025 is inviting me to let go, to release and to surrender on many levels (more on that in future posts). This dream of opening a clinic was a chapter in my story, but it wasn’t the final chapter. By releasing it, I have strengthened my trust and surrender muscles and know that the best is yet to come!

Until next time, breathe deeply, love fully, and be kind to yourself,

🤍 Erica

The opinions expressed in this blog are my own and are intended for informational purposes only. This content is not a substitute for professional advice or a personalized assessment. Always consult a qualified medical practitioner for guidance tailored to your unique situation.

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